So yeah the rest of the hsitory of me.....prt 1

So I left the last post on high emotions.  And as I do a lot of times I bury and this got buried.  I didn't want to rip up the past but yet another time someone said I should either right down something or I should blog.  So time to dig up the coffin and let the bones rattle.

So in the last post I left it at losing my mother and I was a physical and emotional punching bag.  So that was 12 from then on it was a tough.  I had to learn to weave and glide through the mine field of home life while trying to be understood at school and learn while being tormented.   It was a tough time in my life.  And really the years ran together.  I had a very good friend that I am now back in contact with today.  She was my sister.  I loved her as one.  She was there through a lot.  She reported what was happening to me at home to the school counselor I dont know how many times.  NOTE:  To those who are made aware of abuse - after so much it is not falling down the stairs or hitting a door knob.  I covered for my parents.  I told them I fell or whatever.  The hardest one I ever had to explain was my ear.  My father grabbed me by ear lobe one day just get my attention and he bruised my entire ear.  Dog bit me...yeah yeah that's right.  Anyhow it all ran together between age 12 to oh about 20ish.  It was a cycle of events that continued for those 8 yrs. 

I went to junior college and barely survived like always doing the same things.  And then things changed in 1995 I met a man.  A wonderful man!  Now I didnt know that then, but I had an idea.  So began my life with Shane Johnson.

It all started when I decided to take Micro-Econ with my friend Emily.  What in the hello was I thinking.  Way over my head.  So as I sat there looking at the questions for a pending assignment that was due in a matter of minutes.  I realized I didnt have a few questions, oh why am I lying...I didnt have any questions answered.  So I looked at this guy sitting across from me.  I didnt see him as possible date material or even friend material.  Honestly in that state of mind I was in it was who I could use to get by.  However he made me look twice!