Thursday, May 19, 2011

History of me...prt 2

I looked over at this kind of geeky kid.  I was so into the bad boys, manly country rodeo bad boys.  Honestly I was looking at his friend as possible date material.

"Hey you do you have the answer to question #3?"
 He slowly looks up, "My name is not 'hey you', its Shane, Jennifer."

Really!?!?!?!  Wow, didnt ask for a tude just the answer.  Then class by class we talked a little more, then he started sitting next to me in class.  All the while I was not thinking as him as more then just a possible friend.
Then one day out of the blue after a super crappy day I walked out to my little red car and found a note on my car.  Yep it was from him.  Just saying maybe we could get together.  Well I had already gone through a crappy break up earlier that week.  Just another shining moment of when I found out I was not good enough and I was the other women....oh yeah with like 8 other ladies.  Anyhow, my friends had already decided to take me out that weekend, and I thought what the hay.  So I gave Shane a call and asked if he wanted to join.  Still not thinking anything more then just maybe a couple of dates....yeah a bounce back....a rebound.

So we went out on a couple of dates, and I liked him.  He was really nice!  Not like that I have ever been with before.  Is this what I was missing after all the other guys I dated.  Really...I dont know if I like the bad guys anymore!  Give the nice quite guy a chance....you never know when you have a Prince!

So we had been dating for about a couple of months, and things were great.  No WONDERFUL!  He was polite, caring and I think my parents and Grandmother even like him more then they like me.  So I had him over one evening when I was supposed to.  Guess what I was like 20 I should have been able to have some one over without my parents being there.

Anyway you remember the land mines I weaved through....yeah I just stepped on one.  My parents found out and I had a letter on the garage door when I got home from work saying I was pretty much dead.  Now when my father said he was going to kill me I had no doubt mind that he would!  I decided I was done.  I was done being the dog poop on his shoe.  My stepmother came home (they had foster kids that I just couldnt up and leave), I had everything packed and ready to go.  Now I said I dont remember much in the years I lived with them.  But that night is burned into my memory.  That was the night I grew a backbone!

My stepmother said that I couldnt take the car and took the keys away from me.  Even though I paid for it.  Any way, I walked almost 5 miles on the highway and then I I did something that I have been told to never do....gasp I hitchhiked.  Yep I could have been one of those girls that are on the nightly news.  Stupid I was, but I had to get out!  I had to!  But I didnt it was a nice guy that yes had a little to much to drink but he got me to McDonalds in DeSoto where I met up with my Grandmother.  It felt good!  I was free!  I would never get hit again!  And to this day I have not been hit or abused in a physical manner. 

And here is where I made the choice to stop it from being the story of me to the story of us.  Shane did things in the next few days after that craziness that I knew he was some one that deserved a second look, a second thought and maybe my heart.

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