How we became more.....

Meaning of Shane:  God is Gracious!

That made no sense to me until later. 

So Shane knew what was going on with the home life.  But that night/day he had a shock.  I was supposed to meet him the next day for bfast.  I wasnt there.  I found out later he called my parents house (this was a time before cell phones....or at least only the rich had them) to find out where I was.  My stepmother decided to tell him that I was only speaking out of a certain part of my anatomy and I could never really care about anyone else but myself.  As he sat and listened to what had happened and then months later told me what happened when he called I knew he was in for a good haul.  I had an hint when he left the rose on my car after the first date.  However if he could deal with the craziness this may be the one!

So I moved from place to place.  First my grandmother then a friend.  Then that friend started driving me crazy....well more her family.  Any how.....Shane helped me find an apartment that I could afford on my Sam's club paycheck.  It was a roach motel.  When say that I am serious.  Because of this place I have like panic attacks when I even see a wood roach and they dont come inside.  I had just sat down to go to the bathroom when one dropped from the ceiling landing on my leg.  Yep I ran out my apartment with no pants on.  Nice, huh?  Any way it was on my terms, I was free....I was on my own....kind of.  I had Shane!

I dropped out of Juco and Shane sadly was not far behind.  I was never a school type of person, but Shane was/is smart.  Super smart.  But we didnt think about it then.  And we had too much fun...we spent a little too much....worked but it got to the point where we were over drawn....everywhere.  We robbed Peter to pay Paul and left Mary go hungry sometimes.  It got to the point where we consistently fighting about money...we were not having nearly as much fun as we used to.  We were in trouble with a capital T.  There was several times I just wanted to leave.  But I had to think...this man didnt leave me in the craziness of my life.  I can not abandon him with this.  We eloped (we had already been engaged) and declared bankruptcy and it all started turning sunshine and unicorns again!    I remembered why I fell in love with him.   It was wonderful again.